UpDaTe!

27 weeks and counting...still counting! Little baby blessing continues to stay active, kicking, punching, flipping and goodness knows what else. Mom is staying active too-working with a before school program, looking still for another part-time job , and getting ready to head back to school. The days are filling up with doctor appointments, now every two weeks, and the attempt to exercise everyday.
I'm becoming more excited and more scared each approaching day. Everytime I hear that little heartbeat and feel those kicks, an involuntary smile just spreads across my face. Recently I have begun to think of this baby as mine and only mine. Not "his" baby, but instead my son.
I'm looking forward to becoming a mom and more than that I'm looking forward to starting a new life. Me and my baby. I know it's going to be tough but I also know it's going to be beautiful.

The Best Thing

The time has come to where I am no longer expecting a baby as much as I am waiting-Fifteen weeks and counting! Everything has gone well so far. The baby continues to stay active, kicking and punching all the while his mom seems to be losing her energy more every day!
I have many mixed emotions these days but I can't wait to meet my little guy. I'm so excited to be his mom and take care of him. I sometimes wonder in the back of my mind if my son would be better off with a mom and a dad and a family but the though never lingers. I could never give up my baby, I'm his mom and he's my precious blessing despite the circumstances.
There is no lack in the love I know he will receive. My parents and brothers and sisters, even grandmas and grandpas, aunts and uncles will give him all the love he deserves and more. There is much uncertainty and fear in becoming a mom but when it comes down to it, there is no doubt in my mind that more than the right thing, this is the best thing.


"I want to give him the world, I want to hold his hand...
I want to show him what it's like to be loved"