Bittersweet

Being pregnant has been the source of much joy for me...epically in the past month. Feeling the baby kick, hearing the heartbeat, looking for names. It is all wonderful and I wouldn't trade it for the world-not ever.
I am scared but excited, looking forward to the future but at the same time wishing for the past. See I would daresay that this is one of the hardest things I have ever faced; I have never felt so hurt. I think that is why some days feel so bittersweet.