Will the Current Carry You Away?

There is a word that should be able to capture exactly how I am feeling at this point in my pregnancy. It's like scared but it means so much more. It's not burdened but more like responsible. It could be classified as unqualified or maybe just unsure.

In some ways, I feel like over the past five months I have skipped forward five years. I am having a baby and the gratification of that is much deeper than some understand. It's hard. It is scary.

I am afraid. Afraid that I won't be able to be the best mom I want to be. Afraid that I won't be able to provide and support a child.

These are the best times, these are the worst times so the question may arise-how do you raise a child in times like these? How do you teach wrong from right? How do you protect from the harms of this world? How do you answer the inevitable questions of toddlers and how do you guide a teenager?What words do you say, how often do you remind them and when the time comes how do you explain?

Having a baby is much like jumping off a cliff over the ocean. Once you've made the decision to jump, you can't go back. There is thrill and excitement mixed with fear of the unknown as you plunge closer and closer to the water. Will it be cold or warm? Will the current carry you away? Will you sink or will you swim?